Its a cool, calm morning..where everything is nice and sweet...I'm walking down the corridor...enjoying the general mayhem around me...trying not to look at the good looking girls....looking forward to spending another day in college...doing everything other than attending class.....then..this utopia breaks...and I find my self being dragged into the staffroom by a teacher...names will not be mentioned...as I plan to be alive next week......
Suddenly, I'm being lectured by the teacher..."Why have you dressed up like this ?".."You look like a beggar!"..."Why are you wearing these jeans?"..."Can't you dress-up properly?"..."This is a college"..then the killer sentence..."You are a SCIENCE STUDENT!!".."SCIENCE STUDENT"..the teacher repeats..like its some magic word that will make me nude or something....I nod my head is mock shame......get lectured for 5 min with dire warnings of big rubbish....and then walk off....the teacher won the battle...but the war has just begun............................
Later, at home, I start thinking...Why the hell does every single THING related to SCIENCE have this bloody huge superiority complex......i mean come on...just because you learn WTF does the pendulum swing doesn't mean you are the new Albert Einstein..but everybody in my universe thinks that way...commerce is for "dumb-f*&^%"....arts....don't even ask....if your doing arts...you are either a dumb girl who's going to getting married at 19..or a mentally retarded dude who'll spend his life in the local bar...nobody seems to remember that Gandhi studied Philosophy...or Nehru studied Sociology....that Einstein had a hatred for Math...that the fact that you have the lameness to sit in a class you don't want to...and mug up what the hell Sin 45 is....DOES NOT MAKE YOU ANY BRAINIER than the guy next door who is learning what a supply - demand curve is...
Everything I do seems to be guided by the fact that I'm a science student...I go to a party..my parents go..."He is doing PCMC!"...I go for a night out with friends..."He got 100 in computers in the 'ICSE' man!!".... where ever you go go..whatever you do...SCIENCE is like some ghost of your past mistakes....it's always there to haunt you..but if you ever tell anyone about it..they won't believe it exists....
Does it take a lot to get into our narrow, conceited minds that what we spend 5 hours a day doing in a classroom does not define who we are.....??...apparently it does....but like they say...."“A democracy is nothing more than mob rule, where fifty-one percent of the people may take away the rights of the other forty-nine.”
My bruised ego not withstanding...I've started wearing acceptable clothing to college now...the word 'acceptable' it self can lead to a whole new blog entry....maybe a will do that..maybe i won't.....being a SCIENCE student is supposed lead to me being too busy to even switch on the computer......the fear of being a sand castle on a beach..with the world being the ocean is not gone yet........the hope of reason is the only light in the world turning darker by the second........as for now..I'm stuck in a circle with no end in sight..............
